Area 77

Do you ever feel like you just wan’t to get things over with? Wether you want to or not it just pisses the shiznet out of you if you don’t at least do something about it. I got a long list. And I all of them are things I want to be done, not something I have to do.

1. Get my degree and start living the real world. Four years stuck at the “in-between” is driving me crazy! Up until you graduate from highschool, you are completely dependant on the parents, which is your right as a child. You get an allowance, someone cleans your clothes, does your bed, cooks your food, drives you places (until you get your own car, which you did not spend a fils on buying it). Life is awesome. Then you can’t wait to “live your own life” and be able to have your own place when you get married and have things that you actually paid for with your own money that you worked for. But what many people forget is the college/university years. The “in-between.” The vacuum of confusion where you don’t know where the bleep you are. If you’re in a foreign country away from home, you have your own place and your own stuff. Cool, I’m in that real world I’ve been waiting for! But wait.. I didn’t pay for all of this. My parents/scholarship people did. I don’t work. Yet I still get an allowance. That means I still am in that dependant phase. And since you have that real world mentality scratched into the hard inside of your skull in the back of your head, you can’t help but feel like you are a moocher. You feel guilty buying things and hate asking for money. I hate having that kinda feeling hanging over my head. I want to leave this vacuum and I wan’t to do it as fast as possible.

2. I want to do things here in the USA that I won’t be able to do in Kuwait. (No not those things, ya nasty!) I’ve been here for two years and I haven’t done anything spectacular or cool. I want to skydive, take a few stunt driving lessons, bunjee jump, and go to at least one game of every major American sport (my Dad suggested that last one). I hopefully, inshalla, have two years left. They will go super-fast and I don’t know if I will be able to do even one.

3. I love collecting stuff and I hate throwing things away. And ever since I got my own laptop, I started collecting all kinds of media. Pictures, music, videos. All perfectly cataloged into God knows how many folders. I wish I could say the same about my living areas. My current intensive collecting project has been Banned Cartoons which I started around fall of 2004. Last summer, I planned to start a new one. I wanted to collect all the classic Kuwaiti comedies of our great comedians from the 60s to the mid 90s. It is going to be hard, but I love a challenge. The problem is that with the banned cartoons, there were thousands of websites with lists of all the cartoons and stuff. I don’t think there are any devoted to the Kuwaiti stuff.

4. Last summer, I also planned to start a photography project of Kuwait. But I didn’t think about the weather. So I spent 46.2% of the time sitting on my fat ass doing nothing. And that sucks because it pisses the hell outta my mom. However, I did do my first painting so I guess that counts as something.

Pfft.. I just want to start living. I feel like a zucchini.

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